pms-ing?

my mood has hit da high point... i just don't feel like talkin to anyone... i just dun wanna entertain dem... man i think ppl are gonna start hating me... well, fah even thought i was pms-ing... well, sorry ppl i never pms... ahha =) fah said sth in da toilet today (yea we're always in da toilet) 'they say that those who always laugh all the time always end up cryin'... well it kinda seems to be true... maybe i'm just tired of bein happy all da time, i just wanna have some time to myself, you know what i mean? oh well, if you dun, it's just too bad *wink*

sometimes i wonder, whether whatever i'm doin is worth it... isit really what i want? i dunno i just think that i'm blindly going after sth which i'm not even sure i really want... i'm at a loss as to what i should do... things at home are gettin intolerable... grades down down down... friends are gonna hate me sooner or later... i just hope i can slap myself awake and look at where i'm going... damn it.

i think i know what i'm gonna do. i'm gonna make sure i dun have so much time so that i dun ruin my life further... and thanks fah meow... u both really mean da worldddd to me... helped me think things thru =)